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I second Gabi belle. She does video essays.

I second Tamar (3x3 custom)

I second Collier.

That would probably help but I'm already on them!

Sounds logical to me. I'm a worrier, so yeah all of this is bothering me a lot.

No, the opposite. I love this new job much more than the last. The commute is worse but everything else is better. That's why I am questioning my feelings.

Havent felt proud to be an American in a long while. I'm proud of loving thy neighbor as myself, not lining the pockets of billionaires. I hate that I'm powerless to do much. Representative democracy? My ass. No one represents me. They're all aristocrats. "it's one banana, Michael. What could it cost, $10?"

I'm not bitter about it at all. /s

It's definitely anxiety. I've got that diagnosis on the books, lol.

1. I have meds for depression, amusingly. They're the same for anxiety.

2. I used to see a therapist but haven't in a while. Been thinking about going again.

3. I think "should" is OK in moderation. I don't use it to judge myself per se, but to ask if I'm off base or something.

The new job is actually much better than the old job in many little ways like coworkers and mentorship and purpose. I honestly don't think it's that.

I didn't do my hobbies much when I was laid off either. I thought I'd be overjoyed since I had more time. Nope. I did them less.

A year to feel not exhausted? Wow.