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Last night I dreamt that there was a small, white, very cute dog living with a foster carer, waiting to be adopted. The foster carer was not kind to her and did not care about her at all. The poor thing was really sad, but it was OK because I was on my way to adopt her. I got to the house and she was so happy and relieved to be adopted. But then I started waking up, and I knew this meant she would not be adopted, she'd be stuck with this awful fosterer. I was so devastated, when I woke up and for a while after I really felt like she was actually real, like on the astral plane or something, and there really is some poor dog trapped in a miserable situation out there because I woke up.

I think it's maybe a metaphor for my landlady's dog, he is small and white. Due to my situation, chronic pain, illness, disability and poverty with no way out and constant stress, I think every day about suicide. The only two things that stop me are the difficulty of doing so while disabled (already have one failed attempt) and the knowledge that my landlady will not look after her dog properly, and he will have a miserable life without me. Like if I wake up out of this shitty life (ie commit suicide) he will be trapped here in this miserable world having an awful time, just like my dream.

No pic sorry, just thought I'd share. It made my day because I didn't think any kitties were eating the food and it was just the pesky raccoons. Good to know the stray is enjoying it 👽

I thought this reddit post was creepy, it looks like 20 years ago, someone invented a device to edit, create and delete human memories, and since then people have been claiming their memories have been changed.

I need them. I have so many lentils

for those who don't know what I'm talking about

But we have no idea what context it could possibly be used in. Any ideas? we thought it was funny

Because I’ve talked to people who say things like that and it just makes me lose my faith in humanity a little

But I have to remind myself that this tagline is some western Marxist (or maybe socdem?) verbal diarrhea and isn’t common among the people who matter

I do like how more health-conscious everywhere is. I live in some fuckass town in Ohio and I assure you, healthy eating is hardly cosmopolitan.

The carnivore diet seems to have peaked around 2024-2025. Not gone entirely but here’s to hopium that it peaked.

TikTok peaked too, I believe. I rejoined and re-deleted about a week ago because it had nothing to offer but ragebait and brainrot

It's all because he's not drinking enough water, or getting electrolytes in his system. So silly, I drink water all day and the idea of not doing it sounds seriously alien. Anyway I'm going to remind him tomorrow when he goes to the store to grab pedalite or gatorade.

Our professor said something about the US having a lot of military bases and asked if anyone knew how many. I and this guy wearing an alligator alcatraz shirt who looked exactly like the type of person to do that both threw out numbers in the upper 700s which were pretty close to reality. We both looked at eachother and realized exactly why we each knew that and how we differed. There was that moment of realization, acknowledgement, and acception with a stranger that I am sure everyone has experienced at some point.

Very funny looking back

More at 11 😔

Been working forced overtime at work and my boss is getting on everyone's last nerve. Anyway, it's alumni weekend for my local college alma mater so loads of old friends are gonna be in town. I always bake a bunch of mini loaves to give out and people love it. I bake when I get stressed and it really brings me peace.I always get baked AF and play classical music whenever I bake and so today after work I spun up an old vinyl copy of New World Symphony and it's so absolutely brilliant. The New World motif is so iconic for a reason, and the way he reworks and adjusts it for each movement is amazing. The grandeur and slendor is so powerful and I always belt along while I make eye contact with my cats.

Anyways, I know the last time I posted about my baking my carrot cakes could not be saved, but these loaves are perfect. One of the people I know from my college days is a vegan, so I always make her a vegan loaf. This was my first time using liquid egg replacement and it seems like they came out perfect

Yep... to be clear, the test is a load test. It consists of a bunch of people being in a Google Meet call, and I have to share my screen and play four 1080p YouTube videos at once as there are 9 other people in the call to put a lot of pressure on my processor.

Unfortunately, in the process, my CPU has a utilization of around 90% for the most part, and they say, for that reason, it didn't pass the test.

For this reason, I'll have to move on from trying with this job, but at least I got this far.

I'm just gonna pull from the Wikipedia summary, which I think speaks for itself:

The group finds that it has not been transported to another world, but instead is in the distant future of their own world. A decadent but technologically advanced black culture keeps either uneducated or castrated white people as slaves. Sexual slavery and cannibalism are widespread and generally accepted. Adolescent girls are sexually exploited as "bedwarmers" by their owners. Other children are bred on ranches for consumption and slaughtered during puberty (when their flesh is considered particularly tasty) or sometimes earlier.

Outside of his kidneys and blood pressure being low he says he's fine. They're most likely going to keep him for a day or two. I wish they'd figure out what was wrong with him, because he was fine this morning when he laid into me.

first time i've encountered this particular flavor of dystopia

This morning he called me to get at me about bullshit stuff, he was mad at himself, really, but taking it out on me. Then he calls me an hour later that he's going to the ER.

Thankfully I had my therapist appt. today and laid it out on her how I'm feeling. So I do feel more peace of mind now. But my dad said he's dying and his body is shutting down. idk how much of this is true but I guess we will see later on today or tomorrow when I get an update.

And I was cursing him out this morning and hoping he'd die for how shit he treated me, and now 🙃

I was going through a whole process for this remote position where I had to verify if my device met their hardware requirements, and it doesn't... meaning that the only thing preventing me from getting this job was literally just not having good enough equipment, as the hiring manager confirmed we would start the onboarding process immediately so long as my hardware met the requirements.

Ugh.

I usually would have a lot to say, but something feels extremely eerie about literally being this close. I can't say much else.

The only way I can really undo this is to get a new PC within 30 days, which is not really an option for me, so I just gotta move on.

Update: Through some power settings, I manage to bump up the processor speed. I reached back out to the recruiter to see if we can proceed. I will let you all know how this goes.

And I don't typically like eggplant but I need to eat it. The only context I have enjoyed eggplant in is baingan saraf but that sounds like a lot of effort. Any ideas?

genius that i am, i left my bag in the train earlier today so i haven't finished it yet and won't be able to for a while. but i read the first 2.5 chapters and it was enough to blow my whole mentality

his idea that the teacher and the students are co investigators of a problem, rather than distributors and passive recipients of knowledge, respectively, is such a good description of what good faith posting on a communist internet forum should look like.

we should all conceive of ourselves as collectively working toward understanding the contradictions around us, rather than as knowing better than our comrades. i feel like all hexbears sometimes perceive of the other users here as students who know less, rather than teammates who are answering the same questions, and i include myself in that

just read the book. it's not that technical, it's compelling, and it's like 100 pages. just do it and make this place more fun and more productive

i love you all

The teams from Curaçao and Cabo Verde clearly deserve to be there but letting China and Italy in would have been way more profitable

I have met and seen online too many people who claim to be “anti capitalist” in some fashion working for defense contractors.

I can give some leeway for people who work as mindless drones in an assembly line putting together munitions in a factory that could blow up if they generate too much static, but the people I’m talking about are not doing manual labor. They sit on their ass for 8+ hours in an office typing on the computer. They design weapons thar get dropped on children with no repercussions, or they stitch together epic clips of their jets zooming through the skies (conveniently leaving out who those jets target, of course).

They’re aware that they’re evil, because they often try to preemptively defend themselves by being self deprecating or sighing before revealing who they work for. It’s like a youtuber apology. And if you criticize it, then you’re the bad guy for not having worker’s solidarity!

We live under capitalism! I have no choice but to build an AI system that targets a population. I need to design the next generation of imperial weapons to pay my rent! Work a less lucrative job? Be a janitor? Clean toilets? Work 2 jobs? What am I? An immigrant? Sorry! I need that $100,000 BAE Systems salary so I can afford self care and resist capitalism (posting on twitter)!

(this guy is you for suggesting that I’m bad for not putting in more effort to find a job that doesn’t directly contribute to global human suffering while paying me very handsomely)

Kind of blown away by how beautiful it was, i haven't watched it since i was a child. Ngl I'm worried my cats going to die from this, he's suddenly so much weaker and thinner over the last week and a half and i can't get him to a vet until thursday, im keeping him warm and comfy in the meantime, getting his favourite food from the petshop and being stricter about keeping him indoors bcs im not sure what else to do.

Just got a text from my other neighbor who saw it happen. I was literally outside and never even saw the van they pulled up in or them taking stuff from out of the house. She called the cops, like they're going to do anything though he hasn't been home in about a year now. The house is under the supervision of a local mental health advocacy which I'm assuming my neighbor is living with. That's if he's even still alive.