Fucks sake, I already thought it was heartbreaking that he died so young. I saw him give interviews just a year ago or so, about the appropriate way to get disabled representation in TV and film. It feels wasteful that someone who had such good ideas, well articulated, and lived that himself - i.e a total expert on disability advocacy - is dead. By suicide.

It just feels like the people who "maybe, slightly" might be prone to suicide, but "are too successful, they'd never do that!" are always the ones going down that road. But that's because fame adds further isolation, and someone like RJ Mitte was already isolated, by his disability. So it compounds; I'm reminded of some video i saw about "the equation of suicide" or "the logical flow of suicide."

I also can't stop thinking about how his costars from breaking bad might feel about this. There are some really sensitive and caring people in that crew. His death is genuinely going to affect so many people.

So. Rest in peace RJ Mitte

Edit: and my takeaway from that article, even if it's just small details, is that he was more hard working than i thought/expected. Had more on his plate. Must have been a lot of pressure on him, because how many other famous people with cerebral palsy are there out there? They exist yes, but not usually in such high-calibre roles as his.

I hope he knew how to take a break.