Asklemmy

I wouldn't say I used to be far-right but at high school, I have some right-wing opinion which is mostly from YouTubers I used to watch as well as I have internalise my homophobia and ableism because I get made fun of being queer and autistic that I felt like something was wrong with me.

It was around lockdown that I graduated from high school. It made me realise of the times I tried to get validation from my classmates which I never really got. Also, Black Lives Matter was trending on TikTok which made me realise how very shallow right-wing space is with them constantly moving the goalpost and framing certain scenario a certain way to fit to their agenda.

I still hate myself for it and despite I have changed, I still beat myself over it and wish I can cut myself. Better late than never but I wish I wasn't that desperate for validation that I think even the slight gay representation is too "on the nose".

Not a fascist at any point, but in music spaces you do notice many of these pipelines. It just takes personal responsibility to find artists who reject that from their scene. Electronic music is littered with fascists but plenty of radicals too

Realizing my nation isn't that great and the official history is a lie. Also, I grew up from puberty.

Never been a fascist but perhaps I can see how it could have gone?

Extreme dislike to being told what I can find funny. Any time some people try and cancel a comedian for example. Who are the people who end up defending it? If you keep following a lot of those people it may lead you down that route.

But then my entire reason for being there in the first place is based on a dislike for authoritarianism, so perhaps that is why I lost interest as they moved towards fascism.