
Ludrol
It's more interesting question than you might think.
Am I an LLM? I am not. Am I my thought noise from where LLM translates thoughts into language? I am not.
I am the one that experiences. I am one that contains and observes both of those systems.
My thoughts are like background noise that when I tune in my internal LLM it gets turned into coherent language(English and Polish). I have recently learned to switch off that LLM for a moment, and as a side effect I begun to have problems with verbal communication.
Edit: I also have a model that turns noise into 3d models and scenes
For "not pron" style: rusty lake series
Sokoban style: baba is you
To get rid of an emotion I feel it as much as I can, instead of escaping from it.
Similarly to get better reasults I don't focus on the result but on the process itself.
I think you could enjoy looking into toki pona.
Jam or give away to your neighbours.
If I had to choose between leather belt flavoured licorice and vomit flavoured Hershey's. Licorice wins everytime.
No. It will never be worth it. This is not the trade you think you are making.
I assume that here lies your problem. That you somehow want this feeling of superiority, and you pick whatever could make you feel that way.
There are two ways you could do this:
OR
There are ways to find mainstream stuff, but they need effort. RSS feeds, good news letters, subscriptions to actual newspapers, throwaway accounts for Social Media with strict time limits and adblockers.