I'm pushing numbers like that. And I have to say, when I really stop and think about it, my life just keeps getting better. I keep getting better. My mind is better. My attitude is better.
I think about death a lot, but I also think about life a lot. Its easy to think back and say "if only I could go back" forgetting that who you are now and who you were then are completely different. We wish we had more time to be young and wise, but usually you have to pick one out the other.
Just write anything. Eventually you start to have ideas of how to build on what you started. The real trick is understanding that a first draft is supposed to be bad. Don't worry about doing it right. Do it first. Then clean it up later.