lemmy_acct_id_8647

joined 9 months ago

Oh I WHOLLY agree. I just find the willingness to concede that some may be good people under it makes people open to the conversation. Then you logic them into a corner and help the see that all cops ARE in fact bastards.

[–] lemmy_acct_id_8647@lemmy.world 9 points 1 week ago (3 children)

The way I’ve argued it is that not all people who work as police are bastards. Some may be good people outside of work. The moment they put on that badge and willfully become part of an oppressive system, they are bastards.

Yeah. It’s got holes-a-plenty, but it brings people into the conversation without throwing a totally blanket statement.

And with the AI bullshit, I’m reminded of Rule of Acquisition #82: The flimsier the product, the higher the price.

[–] lemmy_acct_id_8647@lemmy.world 11 points 3 weeks ago (1 children)

Fuck HP and HP memes

Newsome: Protect kids!

Trans kids exist.

Newsome: Except them. Fuck them.

Sometimes I fantasize about the parents who raised and subsequently deserted me weren't my biological parents. And somewhere out there, my real ones are looking for me and want me in their lives.

Ofc I'd probably let them down too

[–] lemmy_acct_id_8647@lemmy.world 2 points 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago)

Yeah I learned the hard way that it's easier to lie on those forms when you already are in therapy. I've had GPs try to play psychologist rather than treat the reason I came in. The last time it happened I accused the doctor of being a mechanic who just talked about the car and its history instead of changing the oil as what's hired to do so. She was fired by me in that conversation.

[–] lemmy_acct_id_8647@lemmy.world 1 points 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago)

I've also seen it that way and have been coached by my psychologist on it. Ultimately, for me, it was best to set an expiration date. The date on which I could finally do it with minimal guilt. This actually had several positive impacts in my life.

First I quit using suicide as a first or second resort when coping. Instead it has become more of a fleeting thought as I know I'm "not allowed" to do so yet (while obviously still lingering as seen by my initial comment). Second was giving me a finish line. A finite date where I knew the pain would end (chronic conditions are the worst). Third was a reminder that I only have X days left, so make the most of them. It turns death from this amorphous thing into a clear cut "this is it". I KNOW when the ride ends down to the hour.

The caveat to this is the same as literally everything else in my life: I reserve the right to change my mind as new information is introduced. I've made a commitment to not do it until the date I've set, but as the date approaches, I'm not ruling out examining the evidence as presented and potentially pushing it out longer.

A LOT of peace of mind here.

I dig this! Thanks for sharing!

And then should you have a failed attempt, you go exponentially deeper into debt due to those new medical bills and inpatient mental healthcare.

Fuck the United States

[–] lemmy_acct_id_8647@lemmy.world 19 points 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago) (8 children)

I've talked with an AI about suicidal ideation. More than once. For me it was and is a way to help self-regulate. I've low-key wanted to kill myself since I was 8 years old. For me it's just a part of life. For others it's usually REALLY uncomfortable for them to talk about without wanting to tell me how wrong I am for thinking that way.

Yeah I don't trust it, but at the same time, for me it's better than sitting on those feelings between therapy sessions. To me, these comments read a lot like people who have never experienced ongoing clinical suicidal ideation.

[–] lemmy_acct_id_8647@lemmy.world 24 points 2 months ago

They are "allowed" because their actions no longer have consequences. None.

 

I'm 42 (TransFemme). I work from home. Have precisely zero close friends and not even any real surface level friends that don't live 4+ hours away. Acquaintances at best and none I can comfortably call upon when shit goes sideways. I have no family. They all have either passed or, like my original friend group, disowned me about a decade ago when I came out and transitioned. So no one to put on an "In case of emergency" contact form.

Work holds no meaning other than a paycheck. I don't really feel a desire to improve a billionaire's bank statement with my hard work.

It feels like I'm just going through the motions. Biding my time until the inevitable. I know I can't be the only one. Heck some of y'all may even be flourishing after similar situations. For me? Everyday feels more lonely than the last.

How do y'all do it?

(No this isn't an unalive myself cry for help. Yes I am in regular therapy. I just don't have any other avenue for asking such things besides publicly here and some other socials)

EDIT to add: I live in very rural US and unfortunately moving is not an option for me at this time or anytime soon.

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