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sand is cheap. steel is not.

based on all the questions you've posted lately you desperately need to talk to a psychologist. We don't know your situation, and you need an objective 3rd party with training, experience and a legal requirement of privacy to figure your issues out. Someone you can tell everything to, who won't share it, and can pick through your perceived and actual experiences to guide towards healing.

Headphones don't make you go deaf, it's the volume level. Just keep the volume low and your hearing will be fine.

People lie to themselves.

I want to eat healthy. I want to be a good person. I want to be understanding. Etc.

People want delicious food, to be an impervious god in eternal control of everything.

it's all sixes and sevens, yeah baby

Popular conspiracy theories according to me:

1. Fluoridation of municipal water supplies is some evil government program to disperse drugs / chemicals
2. Roswell was an alien UFO crash, the aliens / craft are being kept at Area 51.
3. JFK was not assassinated Lee Harvey Oswald alone. He was killed by the CIA / 2nd shooter on the grassy knoll.
4. Moon landing was faked
5. Condensation trails (contrails) from high altitude aircraft are actually chemicals being dispersed by the government (chemtrails)
6. The Earth (and only the Earth, not the Sun, moon, other planets) is a flat disc.
7. Automakers have cars that run on water but they refuse to sell them to protect the oil industry.
8. Global warming / climate change is a hoax to sell solar / wind / hydro power.
9. Big pharma / doctors have all the cures but they're not selling them to keep you sick & them rich
10. 9/11 was an inside job (planned by George W. Bush)
11. COVID-19 vaccines deposited secret microchips in the population

no shit? (pun intended)

Well, if you're only doing black and white photography, you can have dim red lights on once you've processed the film into negatives. Black and white photographic paper isn't affected by red light. Color photography is a whole different beast, and all the steps need to be done in complete darkness.

I guess the one thing said about darkrooms is, "Even when you think you've blocked all the light, there's something you missed that's gonna ruin your first roll of film."

parents and family introduce them to guns.

time compression

deets? assuming youtube? desktop? mobile? app? browser? which one? shield looks like SponsorBlock? Usually just waiting a sec the UI disappears when you're not moving the mouse on mobile, usually tapping once somewhere except the center of the video. Good luck.