trashcroissant

I feel you 100%, I have the same voice. If you want to watch something truly depressing but extremely relatable, the episode called "stupid piece of shit" from bojack horseman covers the topic in a much more real way than any cartoon has the right to do so.

We can get through it though, the voice is a liar.

I don't... Hahaha this is one of the things I most often speak to my counsellor about though and I'm working hard on it.

My issue is more around productivity (achievements), so what I work on is doing things for the sake of doing them, not for the final product, i.e. doing art for the process or even playing a game just to play and not for literal achievements. Learning to just enjoy things for the process or just doing 'nothing'. They suggested I could just come home and sit and watch my cats and... Just do nothing. I'm still working on that one.

We haven't gotten that far into external validation, but I think learning to have compassion/love for yourself helps with that.

I had the same experience and did feel badly for them as well. For a lot of them (especially middle aged men in my experience), they just seemed very lonely. I miss a lot of those regulars, they were generally good people.

Cross stitch :)

And (at least for me) the most rewarding!

I cant see my demon but I can sense it, just out of sight. I'm not sure which is worse.

I used to get sleep paralysis all the time. For me it was because I was sleeping on my back which (according to some shit I read online a very long time ago) makes sleep paralysis more likely to occur. Haven't had any issues since I started forcing myself to sleep on my side only.