Their choices are not your responsibility.
Their choices are not dependent on your choices.
You choose your own actions. You don't control theirs.
Fear is just a feeling, don't let it control you or stop you. Face it. Deal with it. Don't listen to it.
Mine tells me I'm asleep when I'm wide awake reading or watching movies. I wouldn't trust it too much.
I didn't get a degree until my thirties, once I got diagnosed and figured out my needs.
For me it was:
Accomodations,
Meds,
Moving a lot,
Low music with a predictable beat and no vocals,
Accountability checks (showing up for every lectures or partnering/grouping up for every assignment),
Active participation,
Learning by doing, and
Learning by talking.
For maths (the bane of my existence, but soooo satisfying once you get it!) I also got to do the exams in a separate room with headphones on, and could take breaks to run around the building or up and down the stairs a few times whenever I needed to restart my brain. Plus extra time to account for those breaks and the mental breakdowns that preceded them.
Meds are essential for me, but they can make me miss cues from my body. So it's important to manage my body's needs like clockwork while on them, regardless of what I feel like I can do or do without in the moment: eat breakfast and lunch and an afternoon snack/mini-meal to avoid emotional outbursts or binge eating when the meds wear off. Take breaks (just stepping out or standing by an open window to breathe, or set an alarm and lie down with legs up and closed eyes) for a few min every hour. Go to the bathroom. Drink water. Blink. Do not put in overtime to "only" solve/finish this one thing -that thing won't get solved until you have a shower or talk to another human. Overtime/cramming will not be efficient studying, the goal is not just passing one test and forgetting, but actually learning and understanding...and resting is an essential component of that.
Listening to online lectures (or even worse, pre-recorded one's) was impossible until I got a walking pad, and it made writing assignments and at home-tests way easier. For on campus-days I'd run up and down the stairs during every break in or between lectures (most teachers would do breaks every hour but if not I would just ask them for it). Blood flow through legs means blood flow to brain!
Low music without vocals with a good chill beat fill the silence when people are talking too slow and keeps me on track when it gets boring, without stealing attention or focus by being too loud or interesting.
With daily lectures I got a schedule and routine, which got me up and started in the morning and left a suitable time slot for lunch (missing lunch is a big no-no!). While doing assignments with someone else it was a lot easier to get started (I'm great at filling uncomfortable silences that happens when no-one know where to begin) and organise and section off the work into manageable parts, while having someone else to take charge of those last 5% that I seem unable to do.
I need to take plenty of notes during lectures (might never read them again, but just the motion of writing the words help my listening and retention). I also always ask as soon as I get lost or have a relevant question, and attempt to answer any questions during (even if I get it wrong) a class. If I think my question will get answered I'll write it down and ask them at the end if I'm still unsure. If I don't do this, I'll get stuck on something in my mind and stop following along.
I chose a school with a lot of practical learning built into the education. Lots of practical assignments, internship opportunities etc.
Our brains are evolved for conversation, language and communication. When getting stuck, I usually need a break... But if the break doesn't solve it, explaining the difficult thing to someone else will often make me figure it out by the time I've finished talking. If not the other person might have an idea for how to think and move forward. Asking questions, explaining complex concepts to each other, bouncing ideas, telling stories are all great tools for learning and more importantly gaining understanding of a topic.
Good luck, and if you managed to read all this: you're gonna be fine!
Awesome! Are you using old yarn for the warp thread (I always figured warp had to be sturdier than regular yarn), or is it two different projects?
Are you going for some type of motif, colour gradients or pure chaos?
I'm excited-to-weave-my-own-rug-old.
Luckily it pairs well with being excited-to-weave-my-own-rug-poor.
You can absolutely get excited about a soft luxurious rug curling between your toes and keeping you warm and silent on a cold nights excursion to the bathroom, compared to the wide-awakening shock of a cold floor or even an uninviting prickly gross old rug. Decoration is a bonus.
I much prefer speeding things up than slowing them down, especially talky stuff like lectures and video essays... But it's an interesting question.
Maybe some fast paced comedies? Either the ones that have like 6+ jokes/minute or have a lot of visual gags or stuff happening in the background (for example Arrested Development, 30 Rock, Community and Parks & Rec).
If you slow them down you might have time to notice, enjoy and appreciate more of the jokes before they move on to the next.
Probably more efficient than rewatching to catch new stuff, but I don't know how the jokes will land slowed down.
At least watch without subtitles so they aren't spoiled before they're played out, if you're able.
Cheap trash earplugs at concerts.
Nowadays I have a good pair that I bring with me, but if the foamy yellow ones are the only ones available I'll buy them and within minutes pull them out to be able to hear anything except the person behind me butchering the lyrics straight into my ear.
This way I can hear the music at the concert, and my worsening tinnitus the rest of my life. Win win.
I've never heard a woman complain or be confused about not being asked out by strangers.
It seems like your sources are a fair step into the manosphere, and you and your sons would have a lot to gain by distancing yourself from that kind of influence. Nothing is as unattractive as bitterness, and you are sounding dangerously close to bitter here, and your attitude will influence your sons approach to life and relationships.
I want to see my planted apple tree bear fruit for the first time (it's looking good this year so far!), and then I want to try splicing in a branch of my neighbours cherry tree, and then I want to keep building gradually to have a mutant tree with all kinds of fruit throughout the season. I'll be the creator of my own Tree of Life.
Small goals, small joys, small triumphs - it's what'll make my life grand, I believe.
I imagine spicy or sour berry-based sauces could go really well with things from salads to BBQ.
I like berries, especially frozen, in my water or lemonade.
Let neighbourhood kids know they're welcome to eat from your garden, and you can teach them to weed while you help them pick.