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Hi all I need a sanity check.

Diagnosed ADD as a kid, struggled to pay attention and care in school, was on concerta for a decade. Parents would up my dose if my grades went down and expected me to grow out of ADD once I turned 18.

That didn't happen and my life fell apart and I vowed to never take medication again because I saw it as a conspiracy to sell pills and get people messed up in the head.

After 15 years of emotional dysregulation and crippling anxiety I spoke to a dr and tried an extended release amphetamine yesterday.

My whole world changed. No emotional noise, no background feeling of "I'm a bad person and I don't know why", social anxiety is gone (was able to respond to all my messages and even make a phone call AND talk to a cashier!!!). Was able to do tasks I left behind because the anxiety to start was too bad.

I feel like I can do anything I set my mind to now. My self confidence is up. I don't dread things. I woke up calm. My mind used to be a firehose of thoughts and emotions all at max level. Now it's calm and orderly and logical.

This seems too good to be true. I didn't even know existence could be like this. Is this normal? Is it the honeymoon phase? Is it just because I'm taking an amphetamine? I'm beside myself and life feels like I've got all the cheat codes now. It seems too good to be true.

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[–] velma@lemmy.blahaj.zone 25 points 1 day ago (6 children)

The grief is honestly one of my biggest fears with starting medication. I don't want to face that my life could have been so much better.

Of course that's not a good reason to not seek help logically, but damn if those built in guilt trips and shame aren't incredibly strong.

[–] Lj404333@lemmy.world 3 points 7 hours ago* (last edited 7 hours ago)

I had a similar fear after trying all the different meds to only feel worse. So I feared wasting years, going on a rollercoaster only to feel worse. But I thought fuck it, I'm only getting worse, codeine and vodka binging, let's try another medication one more time and that worked.

[–] PerogiBoi@lemmy.ca 5 points 9 hours ago

I feel ya on that. I'm telling myself that while I could have had many years of better functionality, I still lived life and had good experiences and lived. Now I'm ultra living and all of that time non medicated needed to happen to finally bring me here. It's just day 3 for me so super early but the grief is like "mehhh".

It could also be that I'm super emotionally regulated now so the pain of grief is like a flick instead of a kick in the gut :)

[–] greyscale@lemmy.grey.ooo 26 points 1 day ago (1 children)

The best time to plant a tree is 30 year ago, the second best time is right now.

I did it, I was at peace with the grief after maybe a week. Or at least it wasn't my biggest problem any more.

[–] velma@lemmy.blahaj.zone 7 points 1 day ago (1 children)

Yeah I'm in the process of finding a psychiatrist now. It's just been difficult fighting my own built-in reluctance.

Thanks :)

[–] greyscale@lemmy.grey.ooo 6 points 11 hours ago

My issue was more "getting help with ADHD requires you to fight the effects of ADHD to get appointments and referrals"

In the UK it was impossible. In the Netherlands, the system is more caring.

[–] EvilHankVenture@lemmy.world 4 points 17 hours ago

Don't feel grief for this time a year from now.

[–] DokPsy@lemmy.world 9 points 22 hours ago

It does no good to look at what could have been. I was diagnosed well into adulthood and I could very easily spiral on the what ifs. Every previous possible me would not be the same me that I currently am so I only concern myself with what I do, not what some other person would do

[–] ephrin@sh.itjust.works 8 points 21 hours ago

Don’t let it hold you back, it’s worth it. Grief is a part of growth.