I am MAGA-passing and ex-military. I most certainly run in conservative crowds and they are far far more hateful and violent than the more liberal groups I attend. Not saying there aren't lunatic fringes on both sides, but the right has adopted their lunatic fringe as mainstream. Go into any gun shop, shooting range, biker bar, golf course, strip club, rodeo....if it leans conservative and you listen, or initiate more violent rhetoric, it will be met with approval. Do that in a coffee shop, bookstore, bike shop, leftist gun range (we literally have one, it is amazing), or other more left leaning place and try that. Some folks will agree and some will try to run you out of the place.

Note: I have read history books and fully understand all major positive changes were brought about by violence, so I am definitely a more aggro leftist, but I'm not randomly shooting people or advocating for assassination. I do however bring up that peace isn't going to work (wrong or not, not debating that here) and I only get shot down by ONE side.

Even people at my church say "God will smite the sinners(Dems)" as they vote for the human embodiment of the 7 deadly sins and clear machinations of the deceiver turning God's flock against the righteous path.

Get help, friend. It is out there.