GenZedong

In September 2000, fellow Sandpoint, Idaho millionaire Vincent Bertollini provided Butler with a new house in Hayden, Idaho.

fortunately a genuinely soothing habit that i’ve gotten into is trying to further my political education whenever i feel like i’m failing in my formal education (which i keep not caring enough about to succeed in), so i have finally started making good progress on my reading list

it’s okay. cried in classroom and the stall. embarrassing innit? not really. i would say i have a healthy and constructive mindset, but i’m so fucking stressed lately, not helped by the fact that adhd has been strangling me to death quite brutally

Three body problem, I've been reading it lately and I regret not having done sooner.

thank you everyone for your suggestions!!! will note them down :)

genre?

Roadside Picnic.

Big fan of Piranesi, it was the last book I truly devoured.

highly recommend babel!

The only way it can is through inmense subsidies, which is becoming increasingly unviable with the loss of power of the dollar. That being said the US has more of a chance than Europe, they are cooked.

not at a complex level, i mean to understand the basic sentences and what they mean, i have to do this. it's always been embarrassing for me and intimidating, but we must brute force it

self and class consciousness is tough man, especially if you've lived that way your whole life, you learned to live like that from a very young age, and furthermore if you have childhood or other trauma that incentivizes you to keep yourself from becoming conscious in order to avoid processing painful memories without a sufficient framework (or social support) to do so. unless you have a material interest, a material need to become conscious, most people don't, and that's okay. that doesn't make them any less rational

on the other hand, jealousy and lack of contentedness seem like internal contradictions for you to work on personally, regardless of how you relate to or interpret others. in my opinion jealousy is a cognitive error taught to us by liberalism, and the correct response is actually something more like inspiration or wonder. in my own personal experience, my feelings of jealousy were derived from insecurity (material, leading to psychological) that i experienced as a young child, and resolving those feelings has made it much easier to not feel jealous of others.

if you feel that the way you interact with things (from what you said, primarily how you consume media) is the only possible way for you, but you don't feel content about it, i would explore why it is that you feel that way. if you feel that the way you interact with things is truly inferior than the approach of others for any reason, and yet you still feel compelled to interact with things in the way that you do, i would investigate why. and if you're uncertain which of those two statements is more correct, i would investigate that as well.

i think it's not enough to just point out errors of liberalism in the fashion of mao and expect them to be magically corrected. if we fully accept the rationality of every human (on an individual and class level), then there are always specific material reasons why we learned to think incorrectly, as it were. in the same way that diamat gives us the tools to investigate the history of society in terms of its internal contradictions, dialectical materialism also gives us the tools to investigate - and resolve - our own internal contradictions, resulting in more correct and less liberal cognition.

sorry for the text dump hahaha. it's just something i happen to have been thinking a lot about lately.

I was raised in a evangelical church. I'm not against spiritualism in theory but under capitalism organized religion is just horrible. It stunted the growth of my class consciousness. Anyone who can see through the hypocrisy and lies of capitalism will see through the lies of hypocrisy of a religious organization but you don't start seeing the issues of capitalism until you've worked through all the problems with a religious upbringing. They fill your head with myth and theology so you don't fill your head with history and politics.

I'm sure under a socialist society where the church is organized around upholding community and uplifting the oppressed instead of around suppressing materialist analysis, something cool can exist I just haven't ever experienced it. Due to the work involved in destroying the false consciousness of "Christianity" I doubt I could go back into something similar.

FWIW, I was raised Catholic (atheist since... well, I forget, but a while) and the only thing I really "miss" is the sort of pre-made community of it. It can also be annoying when I'm at like a family get together kind of thing and people want to have prolonged convos with each other about religion and I just don't have a lot to say because if I voiced how I feel about it, it'd probably start an argument. I also wish I missed the Catholic shame, in that it was gone, which still tends to linger on me. By that, I mean a kind of internalized point of view that gets especially self-conscious around matters like sexuality, but sometimes even general day to day behavior.

I think I was already predisposed to being more self-conscious than some and the Catholic stuff made it worse. In particular, teachings about impure thoughts are just a breeding ground for OCD-like intrusive thoughts to take hold. What better way to ensure an intrusive thought will turn into a chronic source of fear and shame than telling people that lingering on impure thoughts can be sinful. 😑

On the up side, I do believe they're on to something with the ceremony and it's something we shouldn't neglect as a thing to learn from in the way it impacts people and inspires them. Hell, the whole split with traditional Catholics and the novus ordo (new order) seems to be largely driven by people not liking the style of the new Mass. They will tell you it's more than that, I'm sure, but one of the complaints I hear is simply not liking the style of music. The old Latin Mass does Gregorian chant and tends to use a pipe organ, and Gregorian chant can pad the length of the Mass a lot but also has more of a vibe of reverence, solemnity, and meditation, like as if you were in a monastery or something. The new Mass tends to take more of a "protestant" Christian spin, more often using guitars and more modern pop-style musical arrangements (for lack of a better genre to put it in).

Thank you! 🫡❤️

The investigation came because Jewish people from the community filed a complaint themselves. I'm gonna spare you the gruesome details but if what is reported is true, it is absolutely sickening. Yet you have right wingers defending this with their lives like their biggest passion in life is mutilating childrens' genitals.