canadianchik

I know time heals. I was in a relationship 4-5 years ago that lasted basically 3 years, much longer. That one took me 2 years to get over tbh. Still think about it here and there. I don’t have much friends tbh, the one main friend I have I feel like she’s not rlly there u know? Emotionally wise. I try to talk but it’s always the same thing and I feel bad. But I love being alone.

I agree. But he wasn’t emotionally mature. He left when things got slightly hard. Maybe for the better. I forgave him for when he hurt me. But he couldn’t deal with his emotions.

I know. I don’t numb out toxic wise, it’s more so I begin to feel less for people who try to act all “cutesy” with me. I’ve had guys try to pretend they’re sweeet and say things like “I’ll treat u better” but oh those are the ones who end up being the worst lol. I know I don’t deserve anything less ever so I hope to find someone who will give me the world and more. But I’m scared I won’t feel anything for them. I knew someone awhile back and he was very sweet and treated me very kind, kissed my head, my hand, always opened the door for me, dinner dates, etc. but I wasn’t physically attracted to him as much and things just ended. I have been craving physical intimacy as well but I just don’t want to seek that from someone random but it’s so hard to.

Yeah, I only felt bad doing the whole fake nude thing but at the end of the day, that one guy didn’t even send money for them anyways. But ya I genuinely had someone who wanted to send money to help me, no pictures, nothing. I felt bad so I am glad I got to apologize. But yeah I don’t know if I want to do it anymore because it does make me feel slightly guilty but the financial position I’m in right now makes it super tempting. But I’m trying to do side hustles but it’s hard. And thank you. I appreciate all your comments on my posts, you helped me a lot and I appreciate you internet stranger 🩵

Yeah,, not going to lie, today I felt super lonely and I felt bad I had removed one of those guys after they sent me money so I reached out and apologized to them. I feel bad for messaging them again. Is it bad that if they offered money again to me I wouldn’t say no? I wouldn’t have to remove them because no one is telling me to. But fuck. I feel guilt about everything now I’m over the body count thing. I’ll never let it affect me again. My worth isn’t based on a number and everyone was rihh ch r about it

No everything you say is true I didn’t think it was a big deal to share my Instagram like if someone came up to me people have an Instagramin real life. I always said no I have a boyfriend. I know I’m a loyal person, especially to those I love, which is why it a lot to know why upset him from this. I also hadn’t been in relationship in years so I feel like maybe me and him both didn’t fully understand things the way they should be. and yeah, like the only reason I didn’t tell him about the unsolicited images was because I was disgusted by myself and I didn’t see apoint in sharing it with him, especially since I told him I was sending fake photos to the first guy. I thought he might already know could be sent more so the attention that was receiving/gaming, even though it was fake and I didn’t care for any of it. I know this might make me a bad person and I do regret sending fake photos, but I didn’t want them to send anything to me At the end of the day, I just wanted him to trust me and I felt so guilty for a whole month and everything heating up things I even did before I met him. I started feeling really guilty. I feel like I needed to tell him.

No I mean in the community you sent me, like women talk about whatever they want or is it a specific topic?

Does anyone talk about anything here?

Because I’m broken. I like to make people feel good even if that means putting them first. I’m also a people’s pleaser. I come off as this happy jolly person and soon as I hit home, reality hits. I don’t like talking about my problems because I feel like I don’t make sense or I’m a burden lol. That’s why I am that way. It’s dumb.

Yeah, I don’t blame him. It just didn’t work I guess. Things happen I guess. I will prioritize myself but it is hard sometimes since I lack motivation but I will push.

Thank you so much internet stranger 💕… I am motivated to start, I know I need it, I know I have so much ahead of me and going into my future emotionally more stable and mentally, I will be better for myself and others.