Thank you so much internet stranger 💕… I am motivated to start, I know I need it, I know I have so much ahead of me and going into my future emotionally more stable and mentally, I will be better for myself and others.
canadianchik
joined 3 months ago
Honestly really scared… the initial phone call (asking me deep questions) was so uncomfortable but so comforting and relieving at the same time so I think it’ll be good! It will be online, they are mailing me a hard copy book designed for their program and every week I will have a call to go over and learn different behaviors and stuff
Yeah he does.. I’m accepting it now. I’m too drained to keep trying. He couldn’t trust me and felt I didn’t respect him which is crazy because I showed him more love and respect than I had for myself. But whatever. People only see the bad and suddenly that outweighs all the good people do and people leave. Whatever. I’m tired of fighting. We will be friends, I’ve accepted it. I told him I won’t bring it up anymore. He will always have a place in my heart though. I told him if he thinks he needs to change himself for a relationship then I would be there to support him and I wouldn’t stop him from continuing to live and improve if we’re together. But it all ended the same way it does every time I bring up the topic again, just friends anyways. So yea, I’m drained, I’m tired and I’m done. This is how I am, I can only give/pour so much of myself out until I’m really done. Almost the same happened with my ex, he BROKE me.. manipulated me to get with him again saying he wants to die without me blah blah, we took a break but I realized I can’t go back because of the damage. And I was drained from how he made me feel in those 2-3 weeks. I no longer felt anything.
What rule 5?
That’s a good point. I guess it’s hard for me to settle with everything that has happened but I’m slowly getting it. Thank u.
Ur right. I did let go of someone I had loved because I was in great pain and was probably better for me after all that disrespect. What he did, as ur saying, wasn’t good. It was crazy and it was a manipulative way of trying to get me back. I guess this applies in this scenario as well, he cares about me but wants to let go of the relationship because he’s hurt. So I am better understanding.
I appreciate all the advice, I really do. I take all of it into consideration and always look back at them. I appreciate you for ur comments and everything you’ve told me. I value everyone’s perspective and feedback, it really has helped me. I won’t lie, I think the closure and validation of the situation from posting it here helps, I know it sounds silly, but hearing people’s thoughts and opinions helps. I don’t have anyone to rlly talk to about this as I only have one friend and she’s probably fed up. But this does help and I do listen to everyone.
I will start doing what’s best for me. I start therapy in 2 weeks so I’m looking forward but I’m scared. I know it will help me though.
What should I do? I still want to be friends with him and I know I’ll be capable of doing it without emotions attached, after today, I really see it more clearly. I will respect his space and he will respect mine. We agreed no more sexual stuff since we are only friends now. I regret doing anything anyways because it did only make me feel worse. I think the only scary part is the after**** like when we “heal”, will he remove me? Will I remove him? I think that is making me nauseous thinking about it. But I guess that’s a future problem?
I wouldn’t leave someone if they did. But maybe I’m too forgiving. I believe in change and commitment. I’m loyal to people I respect and care for.
Yeah, I don’t blame him. It just didn’t work I guess. Things happen I guess. I will prioritize myself but it is hard sometimes since I lack motivation but I will push.