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[–] orize@lemmy.dbzer0.com 1 points 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago) (1 children)

Hey there, thanks for responding two weeks later.

So I al doing this trial run where I will find my dosage. It has been mostly great! My thoughts are still not spiralling as they used to.

I've been experiencing the negative side where I get trouble sleeping. And I feel a bit of, not really full on headache as I know it, but a "cousin symptom" of it?

The negative effects occured at the same time I increased dosage from 18 mg + 18 mg morning- afternoon to 36 mg + 18 mg. I have a scheduled follow up meeting in the middle of April but I asked them yesterday to get back to me with an earlier time to discuss dosage, side effects, etc. The idea with the test run is for me to go up to 36 morning + 36 afternoon tomorrow, but I am reluctant ATM because I want to handle sleep better

[–] orize@lemmy.dbzer0.com 3 points 1 month ago (2 children)

Fuck I want that so bad.

[–] orize@lemmy.dbzer0.com 5 points 1 month ago

Jellyfin is figgin Great 😃👍

[–] orize@lemmy.dbzer0.com 0 points 1 month ago (3 children)

I felt an effect! I felt more focused and didn't spiral in my thoughts too much! What the shit!

[–] orize@lemmy.dbzer0.com 0 points 1 month ago (1 children)

Thank you.

What side effects did you feel?

 

It took finding six different psychologists over the span of six years, and countless sessions where I tried to explain how sudden my decision can be, how I always get distracted, how eccentric that makes me and how flappy my whole life is and has been, and all the underlying issues, until I finally met one who understood me and had expertise in the field.

Tomorrow, I will starting with a dose 18 mg of Concerta.

It really sucks it has to be this way. This really is true.

I now feel like I can put down my heavy armor, my sword and my shield.

 

So I got into organic farming. I bought an expensive earth cutter and actually got to rent a farming plot - about 100 m2. All that was last year. I still have that farming plot but to keep it, I have to keep paying for it as well as actually be there and care for crops. I still want to do it but I just can't bring myself to do it? And WTF do I do with the earth cutter? I live in a flat in the city ROFL

I also recently got into game development. I actually dove right into the basics and actually began writing code and functions that work for game prototypes. As in not only did I first follow tutorials, but I made my own shit by just looking up documentation. I still want to do it, but... IDK, I just need a hook to go back but I just won't? And it saddens me, I really want to continue on some ideas I have but its too much.

GAAAH.

And I have a carpenter's work bench coming soon and all these projects I want to do. But WTF will I do.