And no, please dont suggest homeless shelters, those are just unsafe and very demoralizing.
The very first thing I looked for (and forgive me for this, this is gonna be a controvertial one here) is the military, because thats just what lots of reddit threads mentioned, and like it would be an immediate exit from a toxic household, and yes, that would mean enduring an institution thats also kinda toxic, but thats only a few years and you're free, and its much more predictable. Except they dont accept anyone with depression and you have to prove you're "fine" for probably 36 months to even get a waiver. So that's crossed off as an option.
Jobcorps, well thats for low income families, and being a dependent means your parents income is what counts so i dont qualify
Americorps NCCC, well that seems seasonal and the next thing doesnt start till like months later (not sure if I'm even reading the website correctly)
Ngl I lowkey just thought of enlisting so once I finish that, next time we meet, I could stand in front of my toxic brother just staring at him menacingly, like whatcha gonna do, fight with an ex-soldier? Not to mention the prestiege of veteran status. And btw its only 1% thats acrually ever gonna face real combat so its not like WW1&2 trench warfare, its mostly just logistics, and like a civillian job, you'd be contributing to shareholder value anyways so there isnt really much of a "moral highground" either way, except working a retail job or some shit is very demoralizing but military has the reverance. And also
But anyways I'm not eligible anytime soon anyways. I doubt I'm even "manly" enough for it.
~~Bruh idk what to do really, you know that one movie, Parasite where like they work in a rich person's mansion and that shit. I'm not a fan of rich people but like I lowkey wanna like just "housesitter" and chill in some nice mansion with great views, and maybe even find secrets and become a movie plot.~~ (edit: okay this part I'm half joking, its more like a fantasy daydream of "I get to be in a movie plot" probably unrealistic for someone that never been in proximity of high wealth)
I'm in Philly, PA btw.
(Also should I pack light with just a backpack and just one or two change of clothes and laundry often or just carry every clothing I could fit in a suitcase?)
I did therapy with 2 separate people, one was a 1st-gen Mandarin speaking lady with a weird accent (for context I'm also ethnically Chinese), another was a white male. Neither helped.
I had medications from a General Practitioner, Lexapro and Sertraline or something. And then later Wellbutrin/Buproprion combined with Hydroxyzine for sleep and anxiety. Nothing really helped but the hydroxyzine did suppress anxiety for a bit but it also makes me tired af and kinda brainfog.
So I just ghosted them and stopped taking the medications.
I think people in Philly, and perhaps most big cities, have this weird attitude against their "paitients" (aka people they wanna milk money from)
And no giving them money wouldnt feel like contributing. Commingling of assets and then they would only tell you how much they "love" your and "omg we sacrafises so much", and any money you give them would only be repaying a debt that you'll never be able to finish paying, the debt of my birthmother giving birth to me and raising me for 18+ years. So... my desire was a clear boundary, both financially and physically. Even just for a a few months to maybe 2 years (and maybe beyond that)
Like I dont mind using their house as a temporty stop in between different seasonal gigs or something, but i dont wanna stay for long. I want a "safe space" that no parent, no sibling, no drugaddicts or burglars, would be able to breach into.
If you're fluent in both get an interpreter certification. In healthcare and probably some other high reliability industries we're not yet at the point where TTS / STT and ai translation can fully interpret yet. Specialty languages like Mandarin take a long time to connect so there's probably a shortage (I know it's got the most speakers worldwide, but the most common 2nd language in the US is Spanish). It's also a telework job, it's almost entirely done by phone / video call these days. You might need to brush up on medical terminology specifically and the finer points of exact translation but if you already know the language that's probably not a huge leap. I'm thinking that's going to get automated in the next 5-10 years but it should get you out nowish which sounds like the goal.
Any seasonal picking jobs you could donin the local area. Maybe getting outside and doing some work under the sun might help too.
Look, life is an ongoing struggle to find the thing that is right for you. Even then it will always be a compromise you make with yourself. You have only tried 2 therapists. That isn't enough. Maybe you get lucky with your first but if one isn't working for you, you try someone else. You might find a different kind of therapy works better for you but you need to try. Look into Better Help and see if you can get a match on a therapist that would suit your needs more. But please, go back to therapy. For you.
I could say almost the same thing about your meds too. You need a better prescription - talk to your GP about how your current meds make you feel and you can both tailor it to what you need.
Work on yourself mentally before you do anything else. It is your foundation. You can't run away from your mind, it comes with you so it's best to get it sorted out first. The fact you acknowledge you have some issues in that area is great - you know there's a problem and that's a major first step on your road to success. But you need support, and there's no need to make the future harder by removing some of the support network you currently have.
Do you speak Mandarin? Doesn't China have some kind of program for "re-immigration" of people of Chinese descent? I recall reading articles about young adult unemployment being even worse there, but that may have been focused only on college grads looking for college level work, rather than a strong young body willing to work a factory and stay in company housing.