And no, please dont suggest homeless shelters, those are just unsafe and very demoralizing.
The very first thing I looked for (and forgive me for this, this is gonna be a controvertial one here) is the military, because thats just what lots of reddit threads mentioned, and like it would be an immediate exit from a toxic household, and yes, that would mean enduring an institution thats also kinda toxic, but thats only a few years and you're free, and its much more predictable. Except they dont accept anyone with depression and you have to prove you're "fine" for probably 36 months to even get a waiver. So that's crossed off as an option.
Jobcorps, well thats for low income families, and being a dependent means your parents income is what counts so i dont qualify
Americorps NCCC, well that seems seasonal and the next thing doesnt start till like months later (not sure if I'm even reading the website correctly)
Ngl I lowkey just thought of enlisting so once I finish that, next time we meet, I could stand in front of my toxic brother just staring at him menacingly, like whatcha gonna do, fight with an ex-soldier? Not to mention the prestiege of veteran status. And btw its only 1% thats acrually ever gonna face real combat so its not like WW1&2 trench warfare, its mostly just logistics, and like a civillian job, you'd be contributing to shareholder value anyways so there isnt really much of a "moral highground" either way, except working a retail job or some shit is very demoralizing but military has the reverance. And also
But anyways I'm not eligible anytime soon anyways. I doubt I'm even "manly" enough for it.
~~Bruh idk what to do really, you know that one movie, Parasite where like they work in a rich person's mansion and that shit. I'm not a fan of rich people but like I lowkey wanna like just "housesitter" and chill in some nice mansion with great views, and maybe even find secrets and become a movie plot.~~ (edit: okay this part I'm half joking, its more like a fantasy daydream of "I get to be in a movie plot" probably unrealistic for someone that never been in proximity of high wealth)
I'm in Philly, PA btw.
(Also should I pack light with just a backpack and just one or two change of clothes and laundry often or just carry every clothing I could fit in a suitcase?)
Any seasonal picking jobs you could donin the local area. Maybe getting outside and doing some work under the sun might help too.
Look, life is an ongoing struggle to find the thing that is right for you. Even then it will always be a compromise you make with yourself. You have only tried 2 therapists. That isn't enough. Maybe you get lucky with your first but if one isn't working for you, you try someone else. You might find a different kind of therapy works better for you but you need to try. Look into Better Help and see if you can get a match on a therapist that would suit your needs more. But please, go back to therapy. For you.
I could say almost the same thing about your meds too. You need a better prescription - talk to your GP about how your current meds make you feel and you can both tailor it to what you need.
Work on yourself mentally before you do anything else. It is your foundation. You can't run away from your mind, it comes with you so it's best to get it sorted out first. The fact you acknowledge you have some issues in that area is great - you know there's a problem and that's a major first step on your road to success. But you need support, and there's no need to make the future harder by removing some of the support network you currently have.